what is happiness?
my passion has been spent on earth rent
and at the full age of twenty four
I seek more than stirring pleasure.
take care, my treasure. my loving you
does not preclude bliss
I love you and yet stay away,
leaving the way clear and empty
of kisses that confuse and abuse us.
a sad joy is knowing the pain of desire
then fearing to be free of it.
be gently warned that
I love us in freedom.